*DEVIL DIARY*

Thursday, December 28, 2006

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Being working for close to 1 week already
Ok la, for those ppl who still dunno where I am working
Its' at GV TM

Ytd n today were my off days
Ytd went to watch free movie wif some of my colleague
We watched 'The Holiday'
I find it boring cos I hav watched it twice
Bt still its free, so nvm
After that, went to help my colleague paste new movie posters that are coming soon

Did nth much for today
Particularly slacking at home oso healing my injury

Abt my injury, it is on my right hand
I fell down the steel stairs while working on Tuesday
Luckily i land on my butt instead of head crushing to the ground
If nt I m a goner..Haha
I can't carry heavy stuff wif my right hand at the moment, so sad

Currently, my duty is 'floor'
Which means I hav to check every cinemas
To ensure that the projectile is running the right movie n things r going smoothly
I hav to clear the mess made by the ppl after they left
At times I might be running up n down the place

I lik my colleagues
They r fun n crazy in a sense that they play around
Hoho, I love crazy people :D
Somemore, most ppl there are around my age
So it is nice to know the ppl there
Bt when working, they look so serious

Though it can b tiring at times working there
Bt I ain't gonna quit :)
For some reasons particularly

O well, gg to 85 to eat later
Then tmr still need to wake up early
Gg to see a sinseh to fix my hand
Somemore working at 6.50pm to OT tmr
SianZz

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 10:28 PM

Friday, December 22, 2006

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Bak to blogging after few days of absence

Today is a damn buzy day for me
Woke up early at 9am
Bath then went to meet CaiRong at Bedok Mrt Platfoam
Later went to the place tat she wanna interview for her job at somewhere in Aljunied

After the interview, we went to meet Yiwen at Kallang Mrt Platfoam
Then later, went marina square cos she wanna buy X'mas present for Eugene
After buying, we ate our lunch at the Mac there

As I was rushing for time to go for my job interview at TM
I ate quickly n rushed there
Reached at around 1.45pm while the appointment is supposed to b at 1pm
I thought I will get fuked by the manager
Bt instead I didn't.. Haha

Went home later to rest for a while
Then around 5pm Wei Hao n I went to cut our hair
Seriously, we feel lik shit cos of our stupid hairstyle..LoL
After tat,went walk walk around Pasa Malam at Tamp Central
Then later went to Far East wif some of my friends
After a while,we split
The gers went shopping
While Jianyong n I r on our own
We ate our dinner, n we went bak through train
Bt I had to stop somewhere cos I need to return the vcds I rent last week to the shop
After returning, I went home n it was around 11.15pm when I reached home
WAT A TIRING DAY!!!

I will b starting work tmr!!Bt it will b only training for the moment
I m nt gonna say where I m working, bt it is somewhere at TM
Cos I m having doubts over myself whether hw long I will last
Hopefully nt tat short XD
I wanna experience something new, something tat can make me extremely buzy

I m keeping this blog dead for a week from nw
Have being tiring recently,
Being going to town nearly almost everyday recently, then I would reach home at late night
Restless n tired, another reason is I m a bit lazy to blog all the time
YawNzz, time to go to sleep

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 2:09 AM

Monday, December 18, 2006

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Woke up at 1am+ today
Then had to say byebye to the ps2 I borrow from Clovis
So sad cos I m short of 1 game consule to play n I m gonna miss it..Haha

Went to TM wif JianYong to apply for a job application
Nt gonna say wat tat job is..Hehe
Anyway really hope they will call me cos I m really interested on working on the job

After tat actually wanted to go Century Square 'Billy Bombers' to apply for the job application
Bt it was so paiseh, lik around 5-6 workers at the entrance
So in e end we juz walked past the place without doing anything..Haha

While eating Long John Silvers at TM, saw many Mediacorp actors n actress
Including Fiona Xie n the best new actor(dunno his name =.=)
They all look damn HANDSOME N PRETTY
Yao WenLong(dunno his english name) look cool n handsome
Actually wanted to take pic wif Bai Wei Xiu(dunno her english name)
Cos she is really damn pretty
Bt my courage let me down..lol damn paiseh

Anyway, the things I wrote ytd..
I tink I m too much
Cos even I read them myself oso find it veri hurting
I m oso quite guilty for writing all these
Therefore, I will edit them in a few days time
Anyway, what past has passed
No point blaming her for everything
I tink I gotten over things already
I won't write abt her anymore
Only thing I can do, heck care lohz
At least things hav got better for me recently.

O well, going to bath n then watch tv n some vcds
After that, I will b going to sleep

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 8:56 PM

Sunday, December 17, 2006

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Ytd went marina square to company my friends go shopping
We combed the whole area,went to nearly every shops to look around
The christmas decoration there were fantastic
Oso I tink there were late night shopping sales there
Discounts at everything u buy

Speaking of ocassions
X'mas is coming
O dear, me n my stupid idea...I promise so many ppl tat I buying presents for them
Lol, I m gonna hav christmas stress

Today was bored, did nothing at home
Juz playing my video game
Later going Century Square buy something

Friday night was horrible
1 week ago, that happened
1 week later, this happened
If it were to happen 1 month later, I wouldn't care
Nt sad, bt I m juz disappointed
I wanna laugh if I hav really scare her
Cos I juz merely show her my temper when I m angry

I judged her character as a veri gd n nice person at first
Bt nw, I judge her differently
Actually we shd hav broke up earlier, mayb the first month or we shd nt even started
Sadly, bt its' the truth
She.....is........too...........fake
I seriously tink everything is a 'make up'
She can do what she wants
My disappointment towards her has reached the limits
Won't even giv a shit abt wat she do

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 5:10 PM

Friday, December 15, 2006

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Day as usual for ytd, work work work
Gt bored, so take pictures of myself..zi nian
Then after work went to rent some vcds to watch
Go home, bath, online for a while then Zzz

Today watch the vcds which I rent from ytd during work
Watched 3 movies namely 'See no Evil', 'Silent Hill' n 'Monster House'
'See no Evil' is a bit gross, bt storyline is too short
'Silent Hill' is a pretty nice movie, quite an interesting horror movie
'Monster House' is lame....
Still gt 6 more movies left to watch

Beginning to know more people in my workplace
They r all veri friendly
Most of them thought I am a man of aged 20+ cos of my looks
Haha makes me look soO oLd

Anyway, quite happy
Cos I m working part time nw
Oso I hav to work part time if I wanna get daily pay
No choice..Haha
Needa buy xmas presents

Shall stop here, wanna go slack liao...

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 9:04 PM

Thursday, December 14, 2006

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Writing this blog entry soOo early nw cos of a reason
I juz had a horrible nightmare
I m nt gonna say wat is it

So horrible tat it makes me weep
I only can say: "FUCK" I hate my fate

I need a holiday away from life in Singapore
I really do
I wanna go to Australia..where the kangeroos are hoOping around
My mum's best friend will be looking after me there
I need a break from stuffs tat makes me feel horrible
Most likely after my class chalet I will b going there
Mayb for 1 month,Using my own $ to buy the air tickets
Juz need time to CoOl down, think tats all

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 6:40 AM

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

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Ytd didn't update..was tired when I reached home
Anyway went to watch 'Cinderella' at cine leisure wif karen n alvin ytd
Then after tat went to eat dinner
After tat went home by bus n it was around 12+ when I reached home
Bath then Zzz

Today wake up early in the morning
Slack till 2pm
Then went pasir ris wif Chun Sing to meet Fiona
Haha we talked a bit..then later i began to explain everything to her
Glad tat she understand hw I felt
Least we r still bros n sis after all
After tat, went to her work place to slack for a while

Till 5.20pm, went to TM to watch movie wif some of my friends
We watched 'The Holiday'
It was pretty nice, veri romantic
Then after the movie went to eat at the food court
Tats my day

Actually Fiona said lots of things to me which kinda made sense
Yea, an experience I guessed
Also I love my mother, for giving me so much of the encouragement
Tat I will forever b her amazing son

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 11:17 PM

Monday, December 11, 2006

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Today really suc
Okay, 1 thing I lik abt my job is the pay
Bt another thing which I dun lik abt it is the long hours
Also, this job is fucking slack lor
I dunno hw to say la
Just imagine urself sitting down at the air-con room for roughly most of the 12hrs
Nearly doing nothing, customers come, juz ask them what they want
WAHHhh, I tink sooner or later if I dun hav anything to do then I gonna becum a retard

Another sad thing is that my work is being brought nearer
Actually shd b starting at 18 Dec, bt my cousin change me to 14 Dec..SianZz
I think my body clock is gonna change from that day onwards
Gonna sleep early daily..Zzz

I noticed something, even though I hav the job
I can't seems to forget everything
I tink I picked the wrong job..bt I can't quit nw =.=
Cos the ppl there veri friendly, wan quit oso can't bear to do it
Oh well, Gonna go bath liao
Update Tmr...

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 9:30 PM

Sunday, December 10, 2006

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Well,Today was a pretty boring day
Slack at home, then went out for 2hrs in e afternoon

Hmm, I m getting a new hp soon in 2 or 3 days time
I think the model is Nokia 6280..gt 3G
My mum suddenly so gd to me..a bit weird =.=
Say she giving me as a belated bday present..Bt WTH my bday already over so long ago
Aiya bt at least she make me feel a bit happy

During e afternoon, I went to shop for e best present I could buy for her
While oso in e meantime I oso went to buy lunch for my sis n myself
Bt.. I can't find the thing which I wanna buy...SianZz
Anyway I will be going to Raffles,Bugis or Marina Square
1 of this place this tuesday or wednesday
Try to find the best gift for her
I oso tink I m racing against time by doing this
in e meantime oso companying Junn min to find job
Cos she quit her job I tink

Karen says I m stupid for doing this
She oso said y treat her so gd when it is her tat started the break up
Abt this,I really can't explain why
Mayb is cos I miss doing this silly things again
Things tat requires a veri long time to complete

Anyway will be working tmr
Muz wake up at 7am..SianZz
Gonna slack for 12hours again..SianZz
People tat gt free time pls come visit me
Location: Pasir Ris Central 81..Quite near Hai Sing Catholic Secondary N Pasir Ris MRT
Aiya, U ppl see a Big fishing pond near these places tat means I m nearby liao la
Shall stop here, Gonna go slack loh

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 9:36 PM

Saturday, December 09, 2006

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Veri Tired today
So I will just cut short what I wanna blog today

Today wake up early at 7am
Prepared and went to work

Anyway, lots of things happened there
I am beginning to question myself whether I lik this cashier job anot..LoL
Yet again,I did a number of mistakes
Then after work still gt more problems arrived
I think the assistant manager gt sacked
Cos I heard from the others said tat she can't even step into the office
Though they nvr said the reason
The net sales oso gt a bit of problem
Cos normally everytime after morning or early shift hav to count the total sales
Haha, I can't explain what really happened
It is far way too complicating
All I noe is,the boss say from today onwards,I am the office cashier...LoL
Any loss, my responsibility

Gonna end here, rest and relax and watch some soccer

Haish, I can only hope she get well soon..

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 10:54 PM

Friday, December 08, 2006

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Today is the 2nd day of my training at work
Pissed at myself lor, made soo many silly mistakes
Count $$ till my head wanna go haywire liao la...haha
Tmr will be my official first day when I start work and earn $
Think I gonna be veri buzy cos its' weekend tmr
Then starting from 18 dec, I will be working for 1month full time
8am-8pm- ->$50 per day
My Off day will be on every Sunday

Ytd, I talked with Sheng Xiong for a while on the phone
Talk about lots of things
At a part, he said tat I hav nt matured yet
Cos I am still depending on my parents
And tat I don't think BIG enough
I kinda agreed wif what he said

So starting from 2007
I SWEAR I won't relied on my parents anymore
No more pocket money, I will feed myself from the year onwards

Actually, Sheng Xiong's words kinda inspired me to change into a different person
To make myself become successful in career
To see the Real WorlD
I SWEAR i will show him hw successful I am in within 5years
Include studies and my fame

After thinking and assuming every possible reasons
I tink I noe why she left me liao
Bt I can't gurantee whether my guess is rite anot
Only a mere 60% probability
The fault doesn't lies wif her, it lies wif me instead

I hav decided to giv her a Xmas present, probably my last present for her
I hav target the date 31/dec/2006
Yep, the last date of this year
When I am oso Off at that day
Whether this present produce any hope or sincerity will hav to depend on me liao
Whether I can finish it on time anot
Cos of my working life, I might not be able to finish the present
If things still remain the same, then no point liao
I will hav to move on..
Wait for the new year and live a new life

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 8:47 PM

Thursday, December 07, 2006

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Whew,finally my blog is done
Thx to Qiyun for giving me the music codes webby
And to CaiRong for the tag board webby
I tink this music suits this blog a lot, Haha

Today was a tiring day
Haha, Thx to my cousin, I got a job as a cashier
Just came bak from the training, tmr still hav to go again
Gosh, Its' kinda complicating bcos I needa remember so many things
Bt nvm, at least this will bring me $$$ and to kill some time
I still needa buy for some of my friends Xmas presents..

Ytd Weihao n I chat lik 2hours after supper
We talk a lot..abt girls and GoD and also share our problems
I can say that we knows each other inside out after close to 9yrs of friendship
Even my secrets, he exposed them.Haha
Then at a period while we were talking abt GoD
We started to question his presence
Does He really exist?
Then we come out with lots of lame theory, bt they kinda make sense
Mayb the reason why I don't believe in GoD totally can be accepted
I felt we were of the same boat
For our dreadful past
Bt he is a bit more of a worse case than mine

I won't be trusting women anymore
And
I mean EVERY WOMEN
They have a two sided face
One the pure side, caring and nice
Bt on the other dark side, we dunno what they have in mind

Anyway, I will be working full time soon
Possibly won't be so free in days to come
At least I will still have days off
Bt I still dunno when is it
Haha shall stop here, post other time

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 9:12 PM

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

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Why do this to me
The pain, suffering, sorrow…
It’s just really too hard for me to take

Have I done anything wrong to deserve this?
If not, I just need to know the reason of breaking up?
Can’t be possibly the reason that u don’t want to be committed to this relationship.
And this ridiculous reason of choosing to be carefree.
If so, then why choose to be with me at the first place
All the words and things u said… Are they true words or just plain rubbish being said?
When I asked you the questions on the phone just now
I was extremely disappointed
Your answers make me think it is really OVER.
This relationship is DOOM, HOPELESS, ENDED.

Is God punishing me in some ways?
That I have being in a fucker in the past?
And now I have deserved this fate.

The MONEY, EFFORT and TIME spent throughout this relationship
It’s really hard to take.
I done my part to save this relationship but since you really want this to end
I guess I can do nothing about it

Am I treating you like a toy?
That was the question that you asked me weeks ago
But now, I think that question should be ask the other way round

I have cried enough
I hav possibly treat her to the best I could
Giving in too much was probably my biggest mistake

Btw, I wished to thank all my friends for listening to me just now
I love you peeps lot.
Especially my bro Wei Hao, my dear sis Karen, my di Jason and Cairong
Thx for listening to me on the phone just now
And some other people that talk to me in the MSN
U people give me the encouragement to move on

Maybe you people were right
I can find a better girl with better qualities de
Next time, I assure I won’t fall in love so easily

If possible my last wish would be…
For Fiona to forgive you
Everything starts from me, the centre of the friendship of you both
I wish that I could just say sorry to Fiona for this
And I wouldn't bother both of you anymore
Really hope that both of you can become good friends again

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 11:23 PM