*DEVIL DIARY*

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

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Had a gd chat wif my ex today
Jux wanna say...thx for ur encouragement..

Life is gonna change for me =D
Look ahead for the future
Find the true love of my life
Thou I am still searching
But studies shall come first..

I really need to buck up for my studies
Thou I am assured of getting A for 1 of my subject
But as for the others...Haish
Seriously, I really regret about not re-taking my 'O'
I tink it would b my biggest regret this year
As I am not young anymore
Calculation after I come out from poly..25 or 26yrs old
Pretty Old uh??

Well, study week is coming soon
As for friday, I will b going bak to my secondary skool wif my group of ex-classmates
Cos its...TEACHERS' DAY EVE!!
Miss them so much, as well as the teachers
So far only a small amount of ppl has confirm abt gg bak there
Will contact more tmr..

Oh well,exam coming in less than 2 weeks time
Stress and pressure is arriving
Expectation shall be high from my Dad
I fear tat I might not do well
But I seal my own fate

Work hard..MarcuS!!!

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 11:33 AM

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

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I suc at understanding gers.
Yet another failed relationship..
Move on..Marcus...

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 12:12 PM

Monday, August 27, 2007

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Well,I hav been buzy again lately
As usual, the tests can't stop coming

Tmr I will b having my final BMA test in the morning as well
COM skills presentation in the afternoon
Then after COM skills presentation,there will b CMN test
TEST TEST TEST
Life sucs...

Well,came home pretty late today..around 7pm+
Cos I went to eat wif weihao after my lessons today
So tired that the moment I reached home
I fall asleep almost immediately till 11.20pm
Woke up..hurried finish my project
But still I took 2hrs+ on finishing it..
Was around 2 when I finished already
Haish, find that there was not enuf time for me to study today
Luckily, there would b 2hrs+ free to study tmr cos there would b no DPA lessons
I would hav feel more relieved this way

Lately,I hav been veri pissssssed
Its jux lik.....
U're getting more and more unreasonable
becoming a different person now
Lazy to reply my msg?
Wtf is this uh?
Show u my care and concern but I dun get any answer..
Ask you wat is your troubles, nothing is your response
So wat is the point...
FUK IT.
At times, I dunno whether hav u ever thot of my feelings at all?
Jux tat..u weren't lik this in the past..

Well, anyway I am not free for all of this nonsence...
Studies come first =)

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 12:19 PM

Thursday, August 23, 2007

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Have been buzy and tired lately
Well,tests kept coming non-stop
Feeling sooo........stress up??

Went to watch movie wif liyana on monday
Been quite a while since I seen her
Seems she is getting more skinnier..Haha
Did nth much on tuesday
Except having dinner wif clovis after I came home from skool
Went to watch another movie wif my ex-colleague on wednesday
Wat I heard from them is tat GV had changed a lot
Lots of ppl r quitting
Pretty sad to hear tat
Actually I myself missed GV a lot
Especially the people there
I miss the buzy working life too
Kinda regret quitting the job now
Haish....

Today is worse
Overslept for PE lessons
Now I had to wake up early for my naffa tmr
Well, I am jux feeling so sleepy the whole day
Slept for nearly the whole afternoon after I came bak from skool

My exams preparations?
Its jux so-so
I am disappointed wif my DPA overall tests percentage
Jux a low 56%(wat the fuck)
Gonna study harder

Likely to study the whole night wif liyana tmr
Haha, cos its lik we live so near each other
Haish,but I still hav a test after skool
Then after the test,I am going to fill the job application form tat I will b working after my exam
After tat,I will b going to gym
I tink my plans lately is gonna make myself veri tired

As for you my dear
Hope u hav been sleeping well daily and cover ur blanket while sleeping
Come bak home early after ur lesson
Study hard too...jux lik me
If I am showing u a lack of care lately
I hav to say 'sorry'
Hope u would understand..

Lifeeeeee suc.

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 12:02 PM

Sunday, August 19, 2007

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Everything jux went so wrong recently
Or shd I say
Something is wrong wif me
I think I am getting more and more weird
My gf say she can't understand or communicate wif me
I oso tink so too
I tink I am getting worse in relationships

If only I hav the power to read her mind
If only I can understand her more
If only she tell me her problems and troubles
If only we share everything together
They r jux ''IF ONLY''s

Call me ''immature''
Wateva I say
Wateva I do
Actions and words speak for myself
I rather be a stone

I am really worried at times
Whenever I had no replies
My mind will start pondering over many things
I will tend to ask myself all these questions
'Are u safe'
'Are u fine'
'Are u bored'

Saturday's date..to me was a big failure
Wheneva I talks,I would only make her more pekcek and piss off wif me
Cos I seems to hear the wrong things whenever she talks wif me
Thou I think the most eventful thing tat happened tat day was probably the beautiful fireworks
It jux make things more difficult sometimes
When she don't share problems wif me
Its really hard..looking at her on saturday
I already know tat she got lot of problems in her mind from her facial expressions
I tink I am gonna use my old method to understand her more
The method I used 1yr ago
Whether it will succeed
Would all depend on myself

Another problem I am having recently is my COM skills project
I tink I am gonna get 'FUCK'
Everything abt my project is done
But 1 thing is tat I lack picture of family arguments
I can't seems to find them
All I can say to myself is...
'GOD bless me''

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 10:07 AM

Thursday, August 16, 2007

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I am Bak..Wif a new skin...And a new blog address
Ok so to cap a quick recall of wat happen during the past 2 weeks

Well, last week my dear's parents came to sg for a short period
So I didn't get many chances to meet her during tat period
But still I am happy to hear her voice daily

Lately, I hav been feeling so stress up wif lots of things
Studies, myself and her
I think I am gonna hav a serious headache
Cos of how is things are going

Haish..I am really disappointed wif myself
I mean...I am still a schooling kid
I am thinking..When will ppl tink I hav really grown up?
Not now...but hopefully soon after my 19th bday
I admit its true tat I talk lots of cock and make lots of funny action lately in skool
I tink my DOTA-mates would hav tink tat I am veri childish too
Even her sis Look down on me
Pretty de-moralising,but I had to accept the fact
There is no qualities in me at the moment

Anyway..Update other time..
its' 2.04am now
Spent nearly the whole night changing my blog
Of course I did study too
Hmm...as for tmr activities
Mayb I will b going swimming after lessons
Gonna Strive for my goals
'A' for DPA and CMN
I wanna achieve tat
So I guess I need to add oil ba

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 10:32 AM

Thursday, August 02, 2007

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Yawn..soo tired today
I had hav 2.4km run at the morning and 5rounds of running for TKD
Luckily I still managed to get a time of 11mins43seconds
Now I am only left with 4 more stations to getting silver for my NAFFA

Today is jux another boring day of skool
Learn Nothing much
Class was supposed to end at 5.30pm
Bt instead lesson was dismissed early at around 3.45pm
Well, I was supposed to hav TKD at 6.30pm
Bt it was too early, so my friends came to my hse
They gave me the lamest possible reason why they wanna come my hse
To eat magi mee =.=
Haha, but we really ate them
There are some various dishes included too
Actually I am feeling pretty happy cos they appreciate my cooking =)

So after eating we went for TKD
Luckily we didn't feel awful while running after eating 1hr ago
Food is still digesting in our stomach..haha
TKD lesson for today was boring too..only practice our kicking
But its' our first sparring lesson today
As my skool TKD is pretty slow, this is our first lesson
Too bad I didn't get my chance to spar
Cos time was running fast
Nvm, nx week it will be then..

Jux finish talking to her on phone, I told her everything from the start
So I hav told her everything tat she wanna know
Hope she would believe wat I said
Cos she seems unconvinced, thinking tat I m not telling the truth
But tat is not the case
I told myself tat I won't lie to her anymore
It jux makes myself feel more childish
And
I am not that kind of person tat cheat on gers

Hopefully I get to see her soon
Cos I really miss her a lot =)
My love for her jux won't die now..
And
I am dying to see her

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 9:01 AM

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

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Hmm..After all my troubles I hav had recently
I finally cool down a bit ytd
After all the crying,my heart feels a little better
But there is still some emptiness inside me
The feeling of being heartbroken
Jux lik the feeling I had last year
I get to experience it once again ytd
Bt this time is a little different, I can feel tat my heart is opened ytd
I can't explain why
But its'..a really...really....hurting feeling

Well,ytd I didn't hav a gd sleep at all
In fact, I am studying for a test tat is for today
After all the talking wif her last night
The things I hav studied, I can't seems to get them into my head
As a result, I think I am not gonna do veri well for my test

Sian..tmr is gonna b a long day at skool
8am-5.30pm lessons...then TKD at 6.30pm till 9pm
Having Naffa test tmr so early
I need to run 2.4km+ dunno how many rounds for TKD later at night
Life has been a little too tiring for me for tomorrow

Enough Of my life
I wanna improve on the ways I am treating her
I am giving myself a challenge
If I dun improve..means I can't hav her
Which is not wat I wan
So I vow to myself,I mux jiayou
To get wat I wan
Cos I really love her a lot..

:+: I'm In LoVe :+: | 6:14 AM